Lost in exact 259200 secs in the Quantum of Love

Love:  An Absolute fancy word for me.. I thought, it existed in Books written by Sparks or Mill & Boons or some great romantic authors..I never thought, I would write this today, gazing at my ceilings with a cup of coffee in hand.. Can we quantify Love?? I thought we can..  Can we scale Love.. or can we feel that love changes your life..?? So, many doubts in my small brain effecting my day to day life..  Visualizing someone special could only give a small ray of hope..Some day, I shall find him..

Now, BIG QUESTION is how to identify HIM.. What if he stands close to me and I miss looking at him.. what  if  he dashes me in the crowded street of Kolkata and I miss his face with fraction of secs.. After all life is no Movie, no retakes … that is absolute crazy thoughts.. But its true.. How do I indentify my heart beat which is there in me just need to connect through my eyes and brain to work more efficiently.. LOLz!

I remember, every night closing my eyes after praying to GOD, I would imagine HIM  with me.. Hand in hand walking in the Dusk with cold breeze blowing<I, Prefer Beaches then Hills>.. Music of love playing in our minds and We make sure, no one distracts us as we walk close to each other, even air would get suffocated.. With every breeze blowing on our face.. we get more cozy and comfortable in each other’s Shadow as though  we are ONE soul  forever.. With every steps together we define the Rule of Walk.. With every breath inhaled together, we define the Rule of Breathing Together i.e” if you stop breathing, I do the same..”.. With sun going down, the redness would make our way back to love..Covering us completely in the Blanket of Love.. With the birds chirping back to their nest, it will make us feel that ,we are One Soul, made  for each other and no matter what happens, we are ONE, we shall support each other in every way and most important  we cannot live without each other… The shyness of sun will make me shy in his arms forever.. The wonderful feeling of being in heaven is only possible as my Love is with me.. I shall feel secure in HIM..

That is my dream which I visualize every night before going to sleep, and it will turn into reality ONEDAY as I know it..And It happened with the Bang.. Complete silence and I lost in exact 259200 secs.. Life has turned Beautiful and Glossy.. It’s no Book but my dreams hugged me in reality.. I can feel it..  Was that a momentary lapse of emotions??  NAY! I don’t think so..  if it was so then I would be sleeping now and not writing.. I am trying to be elaborative with my feelings as I am typing, but my shyness is covering  face with sprinkle of joy.. I miss myself these days.. as I am lost in him.. My imaginations has turned into reality as I preview my life every moment and it feels great.. I used to think, every steps have to be calculative but in Love, all your calculations go haywire.. If x/0=infinity, then in love.. x= 0* infinity = eternity.. Makes sense.. It will when u are in Love, Complete Love..

Complete Love: whatz this..??? It’s not Movie Love nor Bookish Love.. It’s the Love when you are lost in yourself.. You start to forget the basic logic applied in Integrations or quantum physics..

 i.e  E=hv  , E= Energy, V= frequency and H=Planck constant.. so let’s speak in terms of LOVE

E(engery of love)

V=frequency of Love

H= Constant Happiness..

The energy of your love is directly proportional to the frequency of your love( with Constant happiness).. You can’t defy this.. Energies cannot be created nor destroyed that exactly same with the Energy of Love.. It never be destroyed.. It keeps increasing with the frequency of your love and your happiness is constant..  Should we name it  “Quantum of Love..”Trust me…It happens..

For love to happen in U, would might take less than 259200 sec..  In my case, it took 259200 secs.. I am yet to experience more of the QuantuM of Love in Me.. I shall keep you posted on this.. 

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Story of 8 Beers..

With Sunset, I have realized one thing, the energy to love someone increases.. I am usually at par with my energy to meet HIM.. All dressed well.. Smelling awesome<which is very important>  from the moment,I start to dress for Him till I meet , I am either listening to Romantic songs, with thousands of Butterflies on my tummy or thousands of actionable ideas to execute once I Meet Him.. Uff..!! the stretch from one phase to another is really bad with Traffics, it makes my heart beat  harder n harder..Then suddenly, the Heart Beat goes softer, and then again harder… Its Really bad.. My hands turned Cold and my cheeks are frozen a bit.. Then my Car stopped near his Office Gate .. My Specy eyes are eagerly waiting for him,<For Once I thought I should remove my specs but then I erased the idea, i wanted to cheat on him with my eyes without his notice..lolz> yet I am showing as though its casual..  He comes with his Laptop bag at one side and smile on the other side.. He was totally adorable.. I felt like jumping out and kissing him.. But, Girl! CONTROL! He sat besides me and I could take his fragnance, Though,the smell was not familiar to me..STRANGE!! I just wanted to hold his Right Hand which I dint at all.. Time has stopped for me then.. I was with Him.. Pure and Exotic.. no amount of happiness, no amount of pressure, no amount of earthly pain can visit at that time.. It was just Him and Me.. ! that's it.. I could not hear anything apart from his Voice.. Nothing could jingle my mind other than his Laugh.. nothing can break through my heart other than his heart beat.. It was a stupendous moment of my Life..

I can’t believe, He is with me.. The way he makes me feel good, comfy n beautiful, no one can ever make me feel that way… He knows to play with a girl’s mind..Which is the best part in HIM.. I am NUMB with Him.. Only he can make me come back to senses.. His eyes looking at me with a urge to hold him, takes me to another level of Pressure.. The way he blinks his eyes, makes the butterfly of my imagination dance all around me.. The way he brushes his tongue to his lips makes me High that I redo the same with my lips.. A tender bite on my lower lips should suffice everything.. My eyes were all drowning in his laminating eyes, yet I was cheating on him but then I removed my specs so that he can see the same urge that I can see through his eyes.. But then wore them again.. so as to cheat on him more.. What should we do.. Have ice Creams or grab a Beer???… I preferred Beer, we ordered Beer.. and What A Beer… I was already hung on him with that Beer, I was over ridden with his thoughts..Now, I could gather the guts to remove my specs and make him feel what is there in my mind.. With every word, with every move, I went traveling through his mind to his heart.. Wanted to rest there for sometime but, My beer was over by then,..I dint want to lose the moments.. so Ordered another BEER!!!

BEER, BEER.. ALL BEER

Surrendering in here

Take a chance 
push Fear

BEER BEER, tweaking BEER..!

As he was taking the sips, his lips folded on the top of the beer bottle, the curvaceous mount made me roll over it..With bottle coming out, the beer slipping in through the neck, I could hear the sound wishing to replace the beer sip.. His throat taking snap was a scene that I captured in my mind.. I want to feel the snap with the beer slipping in through it.. I could just gaze bitting my lower lips softly..< trying to cheat him again> >the way he was holding the Bottle, I wish he had held my waist..covering my back completely in his arms.. His Arms and shoulders were Broad and magnetic.. I can go invisible in him..  I wanted  him badly then.. He represents an Oracular God with broad and tight shoulders.. He has the most amazing heavenly smile. He was wearing a button up shirt with Formal pants and a black belt. He polishes his black shoes like a military man. He is charming and carries himself very well.
 He has a heart to fall for… I am falling every moment with every sec passing by, with every word spoken by him.. Here, I try to play with my Hair, I softly comb my hair with my fingers, and I can see him noticing me..my fingers running up and down softly.. My soft hair that was rubbing my neck and hand.. I am dead sure, he was jealous of my Neck and Fingers.. I wish, he could come close to me.. With any spoken words kissed my eyes and gently rubbed his lips on my mine without taking the leap of Kiss.. <Looks awkward in first meet> with more Beer, I just gave up the play of being Good and Tried to come out of my shell.. Opening up with my funny experiences and Jokes.. I wish the moment of laughter never ended then.. But Alas!  we both had office the next day.. I was beautifully high with 8 BEERs, so was he.. we came out the lounge laughing and Giggling.. Wanted to end the evening in a sweet way..So I thought I should give him something sweet that will give him a Kick on his highness.. I went to the ATM, got some cash and bought ice creams which we were enjoying.. And out of DARK BLUE, he kissed my cheeks.. I was SPEECHLESS and yet numb again..  I had melted like an Ice Cream then, but had held myself with complete strictness.. The moment was a mixture of excitement and fear with the sprinkle of worry (What he must have been thinking of me, maybe I should have have gone out with him alone and had Beer.. L.. maybe I should have cheated my moves on him), I don’t know but I felt bad, yet it was something unusual, I was perturbed, More of Guilty Pleasure..

Rest will continue later…..

With Love
NIVZ